I don't get the inspiration to write much, but when it hits, it makes me really want to write something. Like tonight. Finished a show, was falling asleep, got up and ate a banana and put the laundry in the dryer, got back in bed and all I wanted to do was get back on the computer and write. Weird, I know.
So today was a day that was full of fun. A couple days ago I got a notice in my email about a livejournal account that was going to be deleted because I hadn't logged in in over 3 years. So, I logged on and found another old account I had there and read a bunch of entries. When I read back its really fun to see and remember what life was like then. I find myself liking that girl, and thinking what a fun person she would be. I know that sounds weird, but its true. So, I get all melancholy, kind of wishing for those single days to be back. The days where I would work at the office, having conversations with dear ole' Jack, doing things with Edna, playing the organ, preparing music, stapling bulletins, and all that stuff. The days were I was much skinnier, had more money, had a cute car, and my time was my own.
Then, I'm jerked back to today. Kids crying and calling Mommy! to get out of bed. And then I bring up my most recent journal and see my last entry was the announcement of JONATHAN being born - almost 2 years ago! Would I seriously trade my life to be back where I used to be? Heavens no. Even if it means I'm fatter. lol Sometimes I wish I could be back to where I was, but what would life be like without my kids....and my husband of course.
Yes, I'm getting back to what I fun day today was, but I'm not there yet. Thursday Stephen and the kids and I went shopping (our day off activities) and on our way home stopped by a new park. I nursed Micah, watched the boys playing with Stephen and enjoyed the beautiful day. The park also had a splash pad and I had brought the boys swim things, so they had soo much fun running, splashing, from water to water.
And then today. Yesterday I decided I would have a garage sale! The last half of the day was preparing and pricing everything and going through stuff to decide what to get rid of. This morning I stumbled out of bed, set up everything outside, and brought my chair out to wait. First thing to sell was our biggest item - and that was nice! It was enjoyable to just sit outside and do nothing. No computer, no phone....just listening to the birds singing. Then the boys got up and they were really good about not playing with the toys I had out to sell. Its always so nice when they're good! :-p
During the day it briefly sprinkled, and I had to bring the things inside the garage 3 times. By later afternoon it started to actually rain, so I arranged the stuff inside the garage. I was quite happy that several people came by and bought stuff even though everything was semi put away.
We had plans to have Micah and Hannah over for supper and we decided to smoke/grill some chicken, make mashed potatoes, and veggies. We got the chicken smoking outside by the front door, and the rain began to come down heavier. Then it started blowing, and pouring! Within a few minutes the trees where being whipped around, the rain blowing this way and that, the swing in the tree being swung around, the lightening flashing, and thunder crashing. I'd never seen anything like this in Houston before! Before we knew it, the road in front of our house was flooding, the back yard was COVERED in water. Around 4:30 the electricity started flashing and went out - causing Stephen (who was working from home) to be done with work! :) YAY! Well, the chicken was cooking nicely, but I had just peeled and put all the potatoes on the stove to cook when the power went out. And it didn't come back on. lol
After a very long time, Micah and Hannah arrived to our dark electric-less house! It was still raining pretty hard so we sat in the dim light of the living room watching the kids bump into each other playing toys! Then we brought in the SCRUMPTIOUS chicken, set up the kids table by the back door for light, and ate our meal of just chicken and salad under our little camping light hung to our kitchen light. It felt like we were camping. The potatoes still sat cold on the stove.
It was so fun! Finally the electricity came back on around 8pm and everybody sat blinking their eyes because it seemed so bright!
So, thinking back, would I change what I have now, for what I had then? Life would be so boring without little kids to bring smiles to your faces, come to you for kisses when they get hurt, to have them express their fears and excitement to, and share in their life.
It is a good day when I can learn to more enjoy the process of life, day to day, instead of focusing on the tomorrows and what will be's. To enjoy every moment. <3
And now, because I'm tired, I'll go to bed,
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